you learn how to weep dinosaurs

       summon the delirious 
collarbone    of your nightmares 
said the ones who   refuse to 
walk away from earth spider 
my reflection in the darkness 
spoke my          
                  name as the inside 
out belly of a slain beast; now 
  the half-digested wolves and boars are 
       merely animals and 
no longer gods in hiding
  what isn't you in you shivers 
          as you witness 
their eyes widen into bloodless moons

       from this root of roots
i shall give you a name which cannot 
be        spoken; a name in    name only 
said the ones who broke 
the turning of the world off 
my fingers 

from this root of roots 
i shall be weak 
a language whose words fall 
off precipices of their own making 

summon the courage to be nothing 
your dreams and efforts 
   dying in grotesque daylight 
said my        name 

       for you are alive and 
by the time you remember what you
came here for; your        voice is already 
drowned     in the  polyrhythms of 
                 nameless beings of the laurel forest
growing                       out of the wealth of the dead 
       itself a remembrance 
escaping 
from your ribcage no longer         your ribcage 
itself a many-legged 
revival of the gods who 
have become                                  gods once again 

        your becoming animal is an exegesis 
of exiled bodies; flitting into quicksand  
they reappear before your flesh 
has had a chance to regurgitate    memories and 
                                                      blood
so you are new and ancient once again; awake and asleep at once 
       you are a secret 
stowed away in your life which 
       is no longer your              life